I’ll start off being blunt, but that’s the easiest way to go for me. I have a need for sex. I am feeling lust and I wish to just be with a man and get it on. This isn’t a bad thing at all, however it is something I’m not used to…finding? expressing? feeling?

I’m the type of person who basically can go ages without having a significant other, or sex. I’ve never really thought I would want someone like that. You know, not a relationship but just a fling. It makes me feel like the stereotypical guy who is just looking to get laid. This is something I’ve never appreciated in men, so it’s kind of hypocritical?

I mean…I understand it. I get it. I respect that’s what is needed, but I don’t appreciate that being the first thing to talk about. I don’t appreciate the expectation of when it is going to happen. I usually like the slow build.

Now…all of a sudden I want the instant response. Maybe it’s just the time of the year for me. But, it does feel a bit hypocritical. It also feels like I’m trying to skip a step. Getting that intimacy without the commitment, or maybe try just something different?

I don’t know, but I know it’s odd.

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